Thursday, August 31, 2006

I Just Don't Get It Sometimes...

I don't get why my thesis is so difficult. I feel very confused and irritated. It feels like literally everything I touch causes more and more problems. I feel very unhappy that despite so much planning and research I am still hitting dead ends.

I don't know how to explain what is wrong because it's quite technical. This is another problem too - most peope don't even know what I am talking about. I asked a friend to come into the lab today (only I have access to it) and he did come in, but then he brought his friend in as well. Someguy who is not even in the faculty. I don't get it.

This guy (my friend) knows the consequences of bringing people who have no access into the lab. I brought my friend in because I needed his help. I thought that justifies it. But why must he bring his friend in? It seems that guy was looking for a quiet place to study. You can't do that. You can't bring someone into a lab you yourself have no access just for him to study. I was so scared the lab manager might come in and question me.

Already my thesis has so much problems...if I lose access to the lab, I am so dead. I don't know why "friends" do this to me sometimes. They never think of the consequences of their actions. *sigh*

Saturday, August 26, 2006

A Job, You Say?

Yep, I landed a job. For next year, after I graduate. I can't give too much details but it's actually in a non-engineering situation where I will not get to practice as an engineer. I'm considering it, because I don't think I ever was that great an engineer. I mean I like it, but it might not be the perfect thing for me. Change is always good, right?

So we'll see what the offer letter says...

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

...A Case of Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna?

Hahaha. Well what happened today was I was walking around uni, dressed in khaki casual pants and a black T-shirt and I swear I saw at least 5 people wearing the same colour combination as me. Like black top and khaki coloured pants. Weird. It felt like I was in Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna (an Indian movie) where there's a song (titled "Mitwa") where the hero and heroine are singing and dancing (stop giggling guys, that's the Indian culture, really - our element of drama) and the people around them are dressed in the same colour as them (but different types of clothing entirely). So yeah, it felt weird. Maybe my dressing is just too good (my sisters will choke now, they don't like my sense of dressing...)

Anyway, since I love Google - here's the link to Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna's trailor, if you want to see what it's about.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

...about the lack of updates.

Well, for one thing I have been lazy. I don't know why but I don't really enjoy blogging anymore. I think it's because I don't want to wallow in my thoughts. So, I just don't blog about them anymore :)

Life's usual. My thesis is making painfully slow progress. I haven't lost any more weight since last semester and it's irritating me. I need to cut more food because I don't really have the time or the inclination to go running.

I haven't really watched many movies. I am looking around for possible jobs to apply for, though I'm not sure if I'll be hired so easily.

I hope things are great for you guys.

P/s - A good friend of mine, Selene graduated last weekend.Congrats!!!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Weird People

Guess what happened today? I gave Davey some cookies in a ziploc bag (because I wanted to escape the calories)...and you know what he does? He eats all of em, and gives me back the empty bag!

*Rolls eyes*

I really do have weird friends ;)

Wednesday, August 09, 2006


I have been going back and forth to Uni way too many times. Just yesterday everything about my thesis was haywire. It's not too bad now. I managed to clarify some ambiguity but that's it. Still a long way more to go. I actually forgot to eat lunch today and I had gastric for about an hour until I handed in my component order form to the Lab Guy. Now I just came home and I'm eating buttered toast. I am actually considering taking a nap - but that might mean messing up my body clock. Took me three days to fix it when I came back from Malaysia.

I know I'm not making much sense now. I shall write more interesting posts soon enough :) Bear with me.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Hovering In Between...

The weather in Australia is calm and soothing. I like cloudy skies - I find them perfect for my contemplating, decision-avoiding mood. Hehehe.

My thesis is coming along alright. I met up with my supervisor and he seemed so laidback and nonchalant about everything. Maybe he just wants me to go away and get my work done.

I haven't been up to much otherwise. Just studying, getting work done, buying groceries, cooking simple dishes. I made tandoori chicken - did taste pretty good ;)

Hmm, I'm in between - in the sense that I am not very stressed, but I am not cool as a cucumber either.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Too Many Thoughts, Too Little Time

I did manage to fix my sleeping habit. Other things are getting to me now. My thesis does not look as clear-cut as I want it to be. Granted I did kind of fix today's challenge, I still feel very irritated that it actually did arise. Sometimes you just want things to go smooth-flowing, for once. Too many challenges does gets on your nerves, you know?

I spoke to the Senior Tutor today. He called to find out my GPA. It's something they do when you live in college (on campus) to keep tabs on everyone's academic standing. I told him mine - 4.667, and he asked if I was okay with it. I said "Oh, definitely not." He seemed surprised. So I went on to explain the nature of one my courses and how there was no lecturer, just tutors and your lab work (seriously, the course is designed like that). Then he asked if I need tutors this semester or some help. Then I told him its my final semester and that my courses are sometimes design-based and you cannot be taught to design - you either know it, or you don't. So he said thanks and hung up.

Does feel weird though. This is the first time he's actually spoken to me. Previously he just left messages on the phone for me to go to the office and inform the receptionist my GPA. Oh well...guess he just wanted to be helpful. Too bad I can't ask for help on my thesis :|

I was worried that I wasn't taking the right courses. So I sent a few e-mails and got a few replies. Turns out I am taking the right courses but I still want to confirm with the office asap to avoid being told "You can't graduate, you didn't finish this course!" Eww. Just the thought of that scares me.

I am just sitting here organising myself. I have a lot of work to do but I don't seem to be able to sit calmly and work it out. But then again, I am known for not being a quitter. So I shall keep at it. Eventually it'll work out.