Your Brain is 73% Female, 27% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Failure

Well my thesis device didn't work much. It was extremely embarassing to stand there at the demonstration session and say "err, yeah this is my design but nothing really worked..." not that I said those lines exactly, but it was what I implied. One year's work - all for naught; down the drains.

I guess sometimes you need to fail a bit to realise what success means..

It sure is a bitter pill to swallow. With the lack of supervision from you-know-who and almost no help, it was so hard to even come up with that device. Doesn't make it easier when three of your friends get awards for the projects. I'm not jealous. I'm happy for them...I even congratulated them. But I feel sad that I didn't even get mine up and working.

Sometimes there is only so much disappointment you can handle. Makes you want to stop expecting anything at all...just give up all your expectations...I wish I could do that. I expected my thesis to work at least. I expected you-know-who to be supportive because I was his student...I expected some answers/hints/suggestions...but I got nothing at all from him.

Just so much disappointment in the end...makes you feel broken beyond words or tears for that matter.

I tried to cheer myself up by going shopping (picked up a pair of funky pants from Sportsgirl) and watching a movie. I also attended IH's valedictory dinner. Some stupid guy threw up near me...got my top a little icky.

My jovial mood was only temporary though. All someone had to do was mention my thesis on MSN, then the mood hit again...

Tired & Drained

It's October 24th today. My thesis is supposed to be due tomorrow, but I kind of got an extension. Don't ask how, it's depressing enough to know that I actually need an extension. A lot of "eye-opening" incidents have occurred the past two weeks. It is very frustrating when you expect something to happen and it happens - then you realise that the particular event brings along another set of outcomes you never considered...

I'd like to write more about it - but when I check my BlogFlux mapstats thingie...I notice a lot of people from different places read my blog. It's not a very good idea to rant about some things this way...I wish my blog was anonymous like it used to be years ago.

I'm just hanging in there, trying to get as much of my thesis done. I'm quite sure a major portion of it will work - that guarantees me a pass at least. Hahaha. More than that, I'm not sure.

Oh well, I'll blog more after I make some major accomplishment. Accelerometer is driving me insane for the time being...and so is USB...and so is the Keypad. *sigh* Why did I choose engineering? I can't remember now...

Red iPod

Omg. I saw the red iPod at http://www.apple.com. Wow. It is gorgeous. To all of you who might feel charitable towards me, please consider buying me a red iPod :)

Food Therapy

I've been eating good food to make up for the lack of progress on my thesis.

Today I cooked Thai Red Curry. It was really tasty ;) I mean, I really shouldn't say this, but I am surprised that it turned out so well (means I am a good cook! Haha).

As for my thesis, I'm making small bits of progress. I'm really worried, but I have to learn to separate my mind and my feelings I guess. I freak out when something doesn't work. I sit and mope :) It's the wrong approach for sure but sometimes it's just so frustrating.

I'll get it working. I know I will - even if I have to pull a few all-nighters. But the thing is, the circuitry and the code is difficult to integrate. Hmm, we'll see what happens, I guess.

Lab Rat

It's 11.22pm. I'm still at the thesis lab. I can't seem to make my USB code work just yet. I bought fibreglass today, to make my mouse body. I feel really tired and I think I should call it a day, go home, take a nice shower and relax for awhile, before I look at code again.

I kind of went shopping today. Picked up a really formal, fancy watch for work next year. Hmm, I'm still vegetarian for religious reasons till 7th October. I plan to cook some really good chicken biryani on 8th October, once I start eating meat again.

It's my elder sister's 25th birthday today. I didn't exactly get her a gift because I haven't had the time to really go out so I told her I owe her a gift.

Anyway, time to go home. Have a great week/weekend ahead guys :)

Potatoes and Paratha

Well, I kind of cooked today - my mom's potato dish. Surprisingly it tasted familiar so I don't think I really messed it up.

Apart from that nothing much is up. I'm a bit disappointed that I spent my mid semester break (the past week) on nothing but work. Granted I did watch some episodes, it's still tiring to constantly work like this. I can't wait to finish my thesis and make it work. I also have to build a fibreglass body for the mouse. *sigh* I'm tired, so tired.

My sister was telling me to go shopping for Deepavali and get some new clothes. It's tradition to wear new clothes. But, I don't feel like it. I just want to keep working. Deepavali is on October 21st, if I'm not mistaken. Hey, that's a Saturday - just means I'll be in the lab working on my thesis. Why do I need new clothes for that? *Sigh* Irritating thesis.

I killed an accelerometer on Friday, I'm irritated with myself. I mean, I have a spare which I am using now, but I still am irritated. I should have known it's so sensitive. Damn, all my fault. USD 35 down the drain :|